I am a mess. I’m not sad, but my thoughts are disjointed, nonlinear. I can’t concentrate, I feel like a small animal. I’m hot then shivvering then hot again. I’m heavy in my body but not at all sad. My eyes and chest act like I’m about to cry over nothing. I can’t tell what triggers it. Am I awake? This feels like my dreams last night (lucid dream within a dream).